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2012-03-30 11:12 am

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They've ordered an MRI for my back.  I will likely be having it Tuesday.  My back is not improving despite all of the treatments and they've decided that they want to look deeper.  In the meantime I am icing the ever living hell out of myself and am considering going to the hot tub at the gym tonight while my ladies box.  Can't hurt, right?
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2012-02-05 12:25 pm
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I couldn't take it anymore this morning after a late night phone call with a friend really made me get motivated about my life. I let myself sleep in then got up and made a twenty item to-do list. Then I attacked. Right now I am on item three which is personal time outside of the house. Good God I needed this. I usually hate going out for food alone but this? I just had an amazing souffle and am enjoying a cup of coffee at Panera. AND because I am doing some business planning (and leaving my catalogs lying around, heh) I can keep the receipt for taxes.

William told me this morning that his hand is "floppy." I need to get on the research.

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2011-10-17 06:50 pm

"In the Sun" by Joseph Arthur

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you've seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in


May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you


I know I would apologize if I could see in your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself, you know, I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you've seen
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake


May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you


'Cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
You...
You...
I'll find you
You...
I'll find you
You...


I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause I been caught in between all you wish for and all you NEED
Aw now maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me


May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you
Always, always...
May God's love be with you


'Cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find?

You...
You...
I'll find you
You...
I'll find you
You...
I'll find you.
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2011-03-15 02:57 pm

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It amazes me that just by losing fifteen pounds I feel like I have a different body.

What is going to happen when I hit thirty?  Fifty?  One hundred?
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2011-03-01 04:34 am

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All this with Charlie Sheen just makes me so sad.  The man is obviously a very sick addict--as I told my director yesterday when we were talking about it in passing we see this all the time--and is just completely out of his mind.

I feel terrible for his children.
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2011-02-14 11:30 am
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My desk is beautiful this morning.

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2011-02-12 09:07 pm
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Testing my newly downloaded LJ app.

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2011-02-08 11:27 am

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Courtesy of Kelley my multiple-year-long dream of having an iPhone is now reality.  I picked it up last night then proceeded to set it up and squeal wildly about it (something DeShawn kept saying repeatedly was "so cute".)  The only thing I am disappointed about thus far is that Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit" is only available as a ringtone in the live version and I am having zero luck with getting the one I made to load in right.  I will eventually figure it out, but damnit the "hello, hello, hello, hell-low" has been my ringtone FOREVER.  You can take the girl out of Seattle but not the Seattle out of the girl, damnit.  Right now I have Katy Perry's "Firework".  It's obnoxious enough that I can hear it with my broken ears.

So I have my iPhoooooone.  I also have the death plague, or something that is making me sick.  Kelley was horrible sick last night and I'm not great, either.  I have a doctor appointment here shortly to go and see if they can suss out what is wrong with me.  The nurse said something has definitely been going around and ten bucks says I have whatever it is--and a sinus infection because, hey, that's about all I can ever manage to get and this would be my third one since Thanksgiving.  We shall see.  Right now I need to drag myself to a shower and see about looking semi-human before going to the doctor.
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2011-01-17 11:40 am

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Every day we bankrupt ourselves in little ways just for the hope of making it to tomorrow.

Henry is sick; Kelley paid is $200+ vet bill this morning and we'll be doing the tight finances dance again, but Henry's worth it.  I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that this trip solves his issue and he recovers.

Mom is desperately ill.  She very nearly died yesterday and isn't doing well today.  I feel the nagging sense that the end is nearing.

I don't even want to think about the insanity that is my fiances, my life, my future.  I am just tired, worn down, and done.

But there's tomorrow.  There's tomorrow.
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2011-01-13 09:03 am

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I joined Weight Watchers right after New Year's.  It wasn't so much because I felt like I needed their program, but rather I realized that I needed some accountability.  The eating plan my doctor gave me is sound and it works, but since I'm on my honor with it in a sense (no regular weigh-ins, no tracking, etc) it was really easy for me to derail and eat terribly.  I lost twenty pounds from September 17th to December 1st, but I gained eight of that back.

I'm probably going to start posting food logs daily this week.  I lost three pounds from day one of Weight Watchers to weigh in yesterday and per the home scale this morning I'm down another two (I don't consider the home scale to be official, just something to sort of give me an indication of accuracy.)

So, here are some stats.

Starting weight: (January 5, 2011) 308.4
Current weight: 305.4
Pounds lost: 3
Ultimate goal: 145
First goal: 293
3/15
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2010-12-25 01:24 pm

Holiday Greetings

We have a White Christmas in Southeastern Missouri this year.  The weather isn't terrible, but it is snowing at the moment and the ground is already lightly blanketed in white.  It's really pretty and exactly what my brother wanted.  I have to admit that it is kind of nice.  I'm at my brother's house right now, having used his oven to make the broccoli casserole since the oven at Mom and Dad's is occupied by a huge turkey.  I'm hoping that my parents and brother like the casserole.  Usually we have a broccoli casserole that is laden with condensed soup and other such bad-for-you things.  Mine has cottage cheese, sour cream, and good things.  I don't know if I salted it enough, but that can be dealt with.  With my family my cooking is either hit or miss--there is no inbetween.  I'm a great cook, but you just never know.  I'm even a little nervous about this one.  I've never made this modification to the mushroom casserole I make so I guess we'll see.

Christmas morning was fun.  Dad and William got mom good by hiding a ring inside a deep fryer that they bought her.  William got Dad even bigger, though, by putting his Vietnam medals in a shadow box display (that he did himself).  Dad cried.  I got it on video.  It was pretty impressive.  Santa was good to everyone (I got a steam cleaner!) and it was a good morning.

I've been sick off and on for a few weeks.  This is my second round of antibiotics since Thanksgiving, but I think I'm on the mend.  I'm looking forward to getting back to normal, that's for certain.

Happy holidays, all!
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2010-11-28 08:13 pm

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It's you and me against history.